I was only in middle school when I first started to break out. I was 13 and just about to enter the 8th grade. I was at the age where popularity had become somewhat of a big deal. I was starting to notice boys and boys were starting to notice me. All of my friends began to develop into beautiful young ladies and here I was stuck with a face full of zits.
All I could think of was to scrub my face vigorously with drugstore facewash that seemed to be doing nothing. Piling on tons of concealer and foundation in attempts to hide my face but nothing seemed to work. I avoided eye contact with anyone who tried to speak to me because I was so embarrassed of my acne. I got constant reminders of how bad my acne actually was, even from my own parents. All my friends had perfect smooth skin. Everywhere I looked I saw girls with gorgeous skin. My self-esteem was at an all-time low. I found myself crying in front of the mirror almost every night. Asking myself what I did to deserve this.
I struggled with acne for years. Although I have managed to take control of my acne I still struggle with hyperpigmentation and scarring. When you have acne or even scarring it’s hard to feel beautiful. Every time you look in the mirror it’s a constant reminder of how imperfect you are. Sometimes even with a full face of makeup I don’t always feel as confident or beautiful as I wish I could. I don’t always let my scarring get in the way of confidence though. Although I don’t have perfect clear skin that doesn’t mean I am not as good as someone who does. It’s important when you have acne or acne scarring to understand that those imperfections are only skin deep. As cliché as it sounds what is inside is what counts. I know that I have a lot more to offer than just a pretty face. I mean, even if I did have a perfect skin I can still be ugly to someone, right?
So if you’re someone struggling with skin imperfections and your confidence, trust me, you are not alone. There are thousands, maybe even millions of others going through the same thing. Acne is nothing to be ashamed of. It is something that we can’t always control. Some days it might get you down, making you feel less attractive than you really are but what matters is that you know you are more than just acne. You have so much more to offer.