By Shanquenett Harris
I am trying my best not to give up on my skin, but it's getting hard. Everyday I wake up hoping to see a change, but I dont. Sometimes I would not put on my glasses just so I won't have to see how bad my face looks. I know that I won't see immediate results, but I want to at least see some type of results within a month or so.
After following my regimen and going through the different medications my physician and dermatologist has given me, the acne bumps actually went down but these dark spots are hideous. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one battling acne. I see so many people with beautiful skin and I be wanting to ask what do they use. I know that some things might not work for everyone, but something works for someone. It could never hurt to try.
I am tired of trying everything and nothing is working. I am tired of crying because I feel ugly. I am tired of being afraid to show my face without makeup. I am tired of feeling ashamed about myself. I have the right to feel beautiful and I just want you guys to help me regain my confidence. I want to be able to walk around without being ashamed. I want to know that everyone is looking at me because I am beautiful, not because my skin is filled with acne and acne scars. I want to be able to sit in someone's presence without feeling uncomfortable. I want to be able to let the sun shine on my face without a bump or black spot in sight.
I know that I'm a jokester but I would never make a joke that causes someone's self esteem to drop. I have had many people say little jokes about me. Polka dot face, spotty, pepperoni pizza, etc... For the most part I would ignore them because in my head I know that something great will happen and I will not be the joke of the day.
I know that this is not it for me. I know that I can get my beautiful skin back. Even if it takes months or years, although I hope it doesn't take years. I am going to try to stay focused on the positives. This is just a minor setback. In the long run I will be able to help many people that are in my situation. I hope that I can make a difference for someone.
Don't give up yet, there is something out there that will help with acne and acne scarring, you just haven't discovered or tried it yet.