By Nhi Chu
My mother insults me everyday with remarks regarding my acne. She is a typical Asian mother who cares a lot about beauty, and especially beautiful skin. She would always bombard me with comments like "why is your skin so ugly" or "I can't even look at your hideous face right now." She would accuse me of not washing my face because I was too lazy.
I work so hard to take care of my skin. I didn't ask to have acne; I would never wish it upon anyone. I honestly think that my mother made my skin worse by forcing me to use all of these powerful products that sucked the nutrients right out of my skin.
My skin was so dry and irritated after using all those products. I don't blame my mother because I know she just wants the best for me, but I just wished that she wouldn't obsess over my acne. All she sees when she looks at me is my acne. I didn't notice it at first, but looking back, my mother destroyed my self-esteem by using acne.
I am so self-conscious about my skin now. I cannot leave my room without makeup on. My family members don't see me without my makeup on because I just feel so ashamed and embarrassed for being the only person in my family to have this problem. The more I tried to fix my skin, the worse it got. I was trying way too hard and in the end, I only hurt my skin. Then, I found people who truly love me and accept me for what I look like.
These people have given me hope and courage and perseverance that I seemed to have lost throughout the years. Now, I'm much gentler with my skin and I use a lot less product. I don't wash my face as vigorously as I did before. One of the most important parts of routine is hydrating. I drink lots and lots of water throughout the day.
I don't focus on just the surface of my skin and products to use; I want to heal myself from the inside out. This can be achieved by drinking water diligently. I've learned that it's the little things in life that can really turn it around. A little goes a long way. You just have to find patience, lots and lots of patience. It's hard to wait, but the healing of your skin is definitely a long process. You just have to believe that you will achieve beautiful skin one day. I hope I get to see everyone at the finish line! Thanks for reading!